Not flying when I badly want to is so hard for me, especially in a competition when all my friends are having such a great time and enjoying amazing flying. But conditions on launch in Àger during the last days of the championships were too risky with the damaged state of my knee :-(
The wind picked up almost the minute the window opened each day and in spite of being prepared and ready to fly I had to make the right decision in terms of the further damage I could cause. The 'responsible' me actually managed to silence the 'lets try it anyway and not worry too much' side of my character.
Congratulations to Wilfred on a 2nd victory and Cecil on become 'sub-campeon'. Maite retains her title as Campeona :-)

A visit to the hospital yesterday was the first step in the process of getting a little more in touch with reality. I didn't want to admit that there is really something wrong with my knee and my happy little bubble of denial has lasted a good 6 months, but I am not someone who can sit still for very long and being so restricted in my activity / movement is HARD. I want to fly, i want to go mountainbiking, i want to run up and down stairs, I want to walk with my dog.
The doctor confirmed that the meniscus is broken and that there is ligament damage to the MCL but until the MRI scan on Tuesday we'll not know exactly the extent and prognosis.

I always said that I would try never to write about anything negative in my blog but for the first time I'm feeling that i'm in a downward spiral to a dark place I don't want to be in. So, this is my first step in changing my perspective.
I need to keep moving - as much as i can literally and 100% mentally. When i sit too long my thoughts can become negative, my positive emotions are mobilise by 'doing'.
So, after a chat with Steve Ward (High Performance Global Ltd) my sports 'head doctor' from the UK I am starting to make a list of the things that I can do while I have to take a break from flying.
Theres lots of potential - How can I maintain fitness? What can I work on? Where could I go? Who can I visit? What can I learn?
Writing about this here will 'make' me do it..... I want to do it and I need to do it!

So, now in the 35 degree sunshine I am going to some 'go nowhere' mountainbiking on my terrace and plan the new me!